skate

a couple of weeks ago, my worker called. shocked the hell out of me. she was sending me a ticket to an event that was coming up, cause she had been talking to somebody who said they would make sure that A was there. a few weeks before, i was sitting next to her at a meeting, and said that i was interested in him, and apparently this time she heard me (even though i had already asked about him in june). it was going to be a skating party where kids and families could interact and hope for that spark.
so today i went to the roller rink. it was ok. it was not really an activity that naturally led to conversation, as was the case with bowling and the zoo. but everybody knew i was there to meet A, so this lady went and got him from skating and made him come over and introduced us. i punked out. i had no idea what to say to him. so he went back skating and i sat down again to watch kids skate around and around and around.
when the group that he came with went to eat, i went with them and sat at their table. again, i was completely tongue-tied. they are just little kids. but it is such a weird situation, it makes me very uncomfortable. eventually, they all went to play laser tag, and i was alone again.