still skeptical after all these years

again i am being pushed to go to an event when i was planning to skip it. this 7 yr old is still being considered for me, or rather, i'm being considered for him. ms. worker keeps telling me that they plan on "presenting" him to me. be patient, grrl. i think i've been exceedingly patient so far. but apparently they are planning on bringing him to a festival/picnic thing that the state exchange does every year. this will be my third year attending. they're gonna bring D for "some non-pressure fun time for both of you." yeah right. not that i don't belive that that's the plan, i just can not get too into anything they say. it's too hard on me.
it's funny how in the classes and books they tell you that the kid will probably be terrible in the beginning to try to sabotage the relationship. hurt before getting hurt, test to see if this is the real deal. it's scary how much i know that feeling, i can totally identify with it as i have a tendency to lean that way too. expect the worst and maybe you'll be pleasantly surprised. i really want to try to have a good attitude though. i think i'll call my worker to see what's up. when are they "presenting" him to me? wtf is going on? are his brothers and sisters gonna be there? why introduce us before we've formally discussed anything at all?
in happy gardening news though, winter sowing was a huge success. i've given away a lot of plants and still have a patio full of little guys to find homes for. either in my yard or somebody elses, but they gotta be planted soon. it's getting annoying trying to keep all these little seperate containers watered enough.
i also got a pin oak to plant in the side yard as a replacement for the baby red oak that's now dead oak. oak oak oak. i want one so bad. i hate maples which seem to be the only tree ever considered throughout the whole city. "hmmmm...we want to plant a tree, what sort of maple should we get?" talk about monoculture. and now i will be a member of the club too, cause i also got a dogwood tree. not quite as ubiquitous as the maples, but close. it was only $10 though. i couldn't leave it at the nursery, not for that price. because it is not tree planting season anymore? i don't get all the sale prices that this place had. it seems like they could just keep them til fall. maybe because they were already potted or burlapped up? don't know, but i'm sure i can baby these guys along. also got a dwarf arctic willow and a cool varigated weigela to put next to the drive. muah-ha-ha-ha my master plan is beginning to take shape.